Lessons (FOH)

Well Hello,

It's been awhile since I've heard from you.

You know, that day when you left me wondering "is he going to call? When will he text me back?"  

It'll be tomorrow.

Yeah, tomorrow.

But tomorrow became tomorrow, and then tomorrow.

And those tomorrows became next week, then next month, then never.

Well apparently, never became today! 

Some 2 years after the last time we spoke.

You remember that last conversation that ended with "Baby, I love you". 

So how can I help you, today?

Ohhh, you've been thing about me, have you?

Tell me were you thinking about the nights I spent crumpled on the floor of my shower where the never-ending flow of tears and cascading water intermingled becoming my feeble attempt to wash away the pain from the outside-in.

Were you even aware that you had affected the very core of my being? That you had me second guessing my own intuition. 

cause how could that which has never led me astray lead me to you to incur such unimaginable pain? 

How could it have failed me so? 

Could you even fathom that you made me wonder if I could ever trust ME again?

Oh Yeah? You've been thinking about me? wondering how I'm doing?

Well,let me satisfy your curiosity--- can't you see?

I'm glowing from the inside out.

Igniting a fire so bright that trying to get next to me again will burn you. Your ego will be crushed and your F-boy pride too. 

Cause without you, my blessings have become infinite.

My skin is clearer and my hair is fuller

I've lost weight and gained it back in all the right places.

HELL, even my butt has gotten a little bigger.

So Tell me, did you ever think that I would have come out of the darkness completely whole?

Knowing who I am, what I want, and what I deserve?

No longer willing to bend to your little girl mold?

Cause you see, I picked myself up a and dusted myself off

I wiped my tears and I fed my soul

With knowledge that I am still whole without you. Hell I was always whole with you, giving of myself wholly, while you were only giving half of you. 

You were always only half. You were my other half; but not my better half. 

If there"ain't no such thing as halfway crooks", then why would you think halfway love is acceptable? 

Promises to write your love on my heart, but only wrote half the book.

Standing there smugly, but I won't give you the satisfaction of even half a look.

Now who's shook?

Oh Yeah, I know. You've been thinking about me.

Well you can stop, cause now you know

That naive girl is now the woman of your dreams.

So the next time you think of me

Sit back, roll up and puff on that "L" you took when you let me go.

Believe me, I've been through worse than you and this heartache did not break me.

I've never been a better version of myself, never more true

I've never been more confidant, braver, or stronger 

So I bet you didn't think that I'd end up saying... Thank You!